So much going thru my mind tonight... and yet nothing quite tangible enough to write.
I am tired physically and emotionally exhausted.
It's to the point that when I come home, I almost have no energy to do anything. Whether it be just taking basic care of my dogs or make myself something to eat for dinner.
It's getting harder for me to get out of bed in time to go to work. I don't want to be there. I hate my job. And I mean hate.
Don't get me wrong, I love the people I work with (for the most part). But I seriously don't know that I can deal with this job much longer. I get a headache as soon as I pull into the parking lot. I'm not even kidding. After an experience I had earlier this week at work I told Chad I would much rather be working 2 jobs while going to school then stay at my current place of employment much longer. And I honestly meant it.
There is only so much you can take. And with everything else... this is one of the few things I have going on in my life that I can directly control... I'm doing the best I know how to wait for God to open a different door for me... I know that it will happen in His perfect timing. Just hard to wait.
About Me
- Christine
- What do you need to know about me? I am a War Bride. My husband returned from his 12 mo deployment to Afghanistan in the Spring of 2011. We are now readjusting to life together and trying to relearn each other. We are currently raising our nephew and are expecting our first child. It's been a rough trip so far, but we have faith that God will see us through.
Mr. & Mrs
Christine,
ReplyDeleteI hope that each day brings you more joy and more peace, but sometimes it doesn't.
I have been at that point. The one where you loathe your job. I realized I needed to quit, seriously, for good, when my boss caused me to have a panic attack because she misplaced a file.
But do not rush. Take a few moments, days, weeks, to pray and wait for God to place the right opportunity in your lap. That is how I became a member of Anchor's staff. Pure miracle, if you ask me. And please, ask, I would love to share the story sometime. Fair warning though, it's a long one.
I will be following your blog. And I will be praying for you.
God Bless, Carla